Viernes, Noviembre 14

Drawing class had commenced, I always look forward to this exuberant class, not just because Eva's adorable cousin has it with me, but also because of my dear friends May and Mimi. May, I'd met when I was a freshman, she's one year older then me, she's an energetic playful girl. Mimi, I just recently got to know, she's also fun to converse with in class with May. The three of us sit together, which can only mean anarchy. We probably are the loudest ones in the class, but it's always due to the fact that we're just laughing. Yet May can laugh much more than both of us and she can laugh for five minutes straight to something that wasn't even that amusing. Oh well, we all have our weird traits.

Eva's Cousin, was sitting in his table for two, very lonely. His friend hadn't showed up. I thought about joining him, maybe start a conversation. Although I wasn't going to do it, May encouraged me. Well, I would, but he isn't gay. She merely said that I should sit with him as a friend and not flirt. So I did. Yet, it was a bit more friendlier than usual.

"Hey, you seem lonely." I stood next to him, my eyes on his illusional black and white drawing. "Your friend didn't show up."

"Yeah I know, but I'm holding up." He replied as he kept using his Sharpie to color.

"Well, I'd sit with you, but I have my bitches over there." I always joke with my friends by calling them bitches, it's funny for me.

He laughed a bit then looked up at me, "That's okay."

"Well, your drawing is coming better than mine, I'm half-way done but it doesn't even look like that." Informing him, I raised my own Opt Art, I was ashamed of it.

Chuckleling, he then showed me his, which was way better and much more creative than mine.

"I was also going to ask you for your marker, mine died a bit too early. But then I realized that you need it more than I do."

"Oh, I'm sorry."

"Don't worry about it." After that, I went back to sit down with May and Mimi, who were both smiling. I just got back to my work.

Later, I noticed he had his head down, I walked toward him, this time sitting on the desolated chair next to him. His hair was a buzzcut, jet black, the same color as mine, his skin was tan, he really was cute. Plus he had this really charming accent, he was of course Puertorican.

"Psssttt," I hissed at him silently, he then raised his head slowly, looking up at me, "Hey, are you finished with your marker?"Asking him, he then toook it in his hand and opened the cap.

"It doesn't work anymore, mine also died." He informed me, he wasn't even finished with his coloring.

"Oh damn, I'm sorry. I'll ask the Miss if she has anymore."

After that, I had finished my Opt Art and he also completed his. The bell ringing, students rushed out the door like a stampede of zebras from Africa. I met up with my twin, Eva.

"Yeah, I just wished I could've just caught a glimpse of this guy." Telling Eva this, she gave me a suspicous look.

"What guy?"

"Ummm....no one." I lied.

"Beau, I know who, I knew the moment you said 'no one'."

True, I could never lie to Eva, she knew right away.

"I'm sorry but, he's that cute!"

"Beau, no! He probably doesn't even know you're flirting with him, he's straight you know!"

True, very true, he's straight and I'm gay. We're from two different worlds. Something that I always apprehend everytime I crush on a heterosexual man. He probably didn't even know I liked him, he just might have thought I was being friendly. At that moment, I decided that I should stop pursuiting him. Yes he's adorable, but some day he'll be a very good guy for a lucky girl. It hurts, it does hurt a lot knowing that you always fall for someone who doesn't have the same sexuality as you. Having those feelings for that person, knowing that they'll never have those feelings for you. Everything happens for a reason. Hopefully I'll find a guy that I'm really crazy for and feels the same way for me soon. Right now, I'm just glad I'm not alone. You're never truly alone, all you need is just a friend. The right friend, and you're in a safe place. Today, has been okay.