Domingo, Noviembre 9

My eyes caught with astonishment, the first snow of November being blown around by the not so chilly wind. The dry leaves of Autumn are slowly cloaked by the ghastly snow, my heated face slowly rests on the cold window. Although the snow is beautiful, it can be quite dreadful as well, I personally don't like it when it snows too much. Why can't it just snow in Christmas and then leave? When I was young, I use to try so hard to make a snowman, it as the most difficult challenge I've ever faced. It wasn't until at the age of 12 that I finally made my first snowman, looking back at it now makes me laugh.

Yesterday, I got a call from A, inviting me to go to the Mall with her and some others friends I knew, such as M. Immediately I was going to say yes, but I got a suspicious feeling, A and another friend were laughing. I wondered why. She kept saying how someone wanted me here so bad.

"Well I we just really wanted you to join us, M wants you to come here really bad." She informed me, I lied and said I didn't have a ride.

"Damn, that sucks! Can you try to find one?"

"Sure, I'll call you back." I answered her, pushing the off button, I dialed Eva's number.

"A invited me to the mall, a few friends I know, two others that I do not. I have a leery feeling about this." Notifying her about this, we then came to the conclusion that A isn't really trustworthy.

"I wish I could go with you, but I'm too busy with other things." Responded Eva, as I layed on my bed.

"I'll just lie and say I can't go."

Calling A, she then answered in laughter, something entertaining was going on.

"Oh sorry you have no ride, it's just that we wanted to see you."

"Yeah I know, tempting, but I can't, sorry."

I called back Eva to tell her what A said, she then told me what they probably were up to.

"I believe that they wanted to introduce you to a boy," she murmured on the phone, "A boy who is probably straight, they just wanted him to freak out."

"Yeah, thought so." Replied I, as I organized a few books in my room, I'm a neat freak.

Maybe the boy was gay, maybe he wasn't, sometimes A likes to introduce me to her straight guy friends just to scare them. I find that very inane. But, what if it was a gay guy they wanted me to be introduced to, they know I'm single and have been looking. I'll just have to find out tomorrow, although we will have new classes since the new quarter of the summester starts tomorrow.

I've been searching for a perfect guy to date for a couple of months, I've met some, but they aren't what I'm looking for. Most of them just want me for sex. J told me that I should just hoping and let it come to me, that's how life works after all. You want something so bad, yet you can't get it. Once you stop wanting it, you get it. I've seen it happen before. That's life after all right?

Grams was watching the spanish news this morning, they were talking about the Gay Marriage issue, which I hope they legalize.

"California will end like the two cities that were destroyed by God in the bible." She acquainted me, as I sat down next to her on the sofa.

"So you're saying that history is repeating itsself?" I enquired her, she looked at me.

"Perhaps."

I love my Grams, I love her so much, but I just hate it that she always tells me these things. Everytime I want to tell her so bad, "Well guess what Grams, I'm gay myself!"
Oh that'll be the day.