Viernes, Octubre 31

Well, it seems that things for my friend have gotten much finer than it was before. Her boyfriend still loves her, misses her, and can't live without her. We've all heard that one before, haven't we? Hopefully they shall continue their passionate relationship, we all wish them the best of luck. He just told her that he wants to analyze all of what's going on until Sunday. Feeling a bit well, she spent the day at Eva's house. Although I did want to go, I felt that she needed to be there. So it gave me time for myself, which wasn't much.

I'm planning on going to a Gay Halloween Dance I was invited to on Saturday. I find it a bit odd that they're doing it on Saturday other then doing it today, being Halloween and all. My parents not knowing that it's a Gay Halloween Dance, believe I'm just going to a normal halloween party with Eva.

"So Eva's taking you?" Inquired my father in his tired voice, I never really like to ask him for stuff.

"Well, that's the plan. Her brother is taking us, that's if she can go." It was the truth I was telling him, Eva was still not sure if she could go.

"Okay." My father probably wanted to know more, but that's all I gave him. This whole conversation was in spanish, by the way.

My parents believe that Eva and I are involved in a discreet relationship, which makes us laugh. Not knowing that I'm gay, my parents have always thought that Eva and I are dating. I still wish I could tell them the truth, come out to the closet to them, and not just to every person I meet. Everyone in school knows I'm gay, everyone outside my family knows I'm gay. Yet, it's a big secret to them. Eva and I believe that they're just in denial. Aint life grand?

Just an F.Y.I, Eva is mostly everything to me, without her, I'm nothing. You see, she's my other half, my twin. We've know each other for half our lives. Everyone has a best mate, don't they?

Jueves, Octubre 30

A dear friend of mine has gone through a sudden anguish due to the conflict that had happened between her and her boyfriend. Apparently they are taking a break, although the boyfriend sees it more as a break up, which has devastated her. It's a bit of both of their faults for what happened.

"I just wish I could tell him how I feel." She mumbled into the phone, I was surprised I could understand her perfectly, since she was sobbing.

"Honey, he still loves you, we know that, I'm sure that things will take a perfect turn." It was the truth, they both saw each others as soulmates and they were only in Highschool.

"I can't eat and I feel very sick."

I'm always there for any of my friends, this one always goes through something worse.

After having a long conversation with her about this, I dialed the number of my best friend Eva.

"She can't stop thinking about it, he keeps her alive you know." Eva said, her voice sounding proffesional yet very sympathetic.

"Yes, but hopefully they will get back together, after all they love each other." It's the truth.

I didn't want to stop taking to her, after all she saved me from being annoyed from the idiots in my household. She had to go, and after that I wondered if I should call my friend.

After the third tone, I decided to hang up. No answer. Perhaps she decided to sleep it off.

Love these days.

Miercoles, Octubre 29

I know that the title for my blog seems a bit, unusual, but the reason for that title is due to the fact that I am homosexual; okay I believe we've established that. You see, I feel as if I'm living sorta a double life. My family doesn't know I'm gay, but many of my friends do, it's a bit of a difficult challenge actually. So much of a challenge that it's caused so much drama in my life that I feel as it's a story that needs to be told to the people. After a suggestion from a very close friend, I then decided to blog for the very first time. Maybe my story might seem interesting to some, others not.

Am I living a double life? It's you to decide.
To tell you the truth, I don't even know myself.