Sorry for the fourteen days without any insight on what's going on right now. You know what they say, Holidays Are Hell.
Christmas Eve is tonight and like always I intend to party and celebrate, hopefully everything will go splendid. In the meantime I have to see what I'm going to wear and do for tonight. Shopping has been also very chaotic, luckily we got all we need and everything will be extravagant.
I wish all those a Happy Holidays, Merry Christmas & A Happy New Year.
Yes, there is much to write and to be told, but right now there isn't anytime. Don't worry loves, this boy isn't out of adventures yet, then again I don't think I ever will.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Miercoles, Diciembre 10
Some guys dream about being Bond, having that raw sexuality, life of action and adventure. While I on the other hand, dream about being with the new Bond, and to tell you the truth, I really don't like him that much. The only reason why he takes my interest is due to the fact that Daniel Craig plays him. Yes, I am not only a huge fan, but also quite a lover of him. One of my friends, even tore out a huge picture of him and gave it to me as an extravagant gift. I couldn't thank her enough.
There's something about Daniel that just leaves me breathless. If I could ever be with one man, it would be the one and only gorgeous Daniel Craig. He's not just gorgeous, but divine.
I should probably stop before I drone on and on. I have to admit though, James Bond would be nothing without Daniel, plus, he makes Bond very romantic. The image when Bond walks out of the water, just in those tiny swiming shorts, wet and sexy, will always be a pleasure.
Can't wait to see him in Defiance and I, Lucifer.
There's something about Daniel that just leaves me breathless. If I could ever be with one man, it would be the one and only gorgeous Daniel Craig. He's not just gorgeous, but divine.
I should probably stop before I drone on and on. I have to admit though, James Bond would be nothing without Daniel, plus, he makes Bond very romantic. The image when Bond walks out of the water, just in those tiny swiming shorts, wet and sexy, will always be a pleasure.
Can't wait to see him in Defiance and I, Lucifer.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Martes, Diciembre 9
For the first time in a very long time, I'm contented that I didn't have to go to school today. Thanks to the certain snow that fell today, many of the Highschool students were encouraged to stay home. Plus, I just came back from shoveling snow, which is a first.
A, is causing much more drama than there has ever been at the lunch hour. This whole, "She talked shit behind my back" and "She doesn't know me!" shit is starting to become quite a nuisance. We all know that she loves the attention and when people take her side. But can't we get a break once in a while? Marco, also used my homosexuality as a change of subject. Which ended pissing me off by beyond.
Other then that, Drama Club is quite entertaining, especially since I'm friends with everyone in it. Except for a certain someone, but that's because he's my nemesis. Let's just say he said I'm "Too Gay".
Last night, Eva and I went to the Mall with a very close friend, Cristina, we had nothing but a crazy adventure. Involving a fashion show, cat walking down the mall, and buying me boy shorts.
"We so need to do this again!" I yelled as I looked around a lengerie rack.
"Of course!" Cristina reassured.
"yes and this week!" Eva added while she too looked around.
It's quite delicate when you have time for yourself and friends.
A, is causing much more drama than there has ever been at the lunch hour. This whole, "She talked shit behind my back" and "She doesn't know me!" shit is starting to become quite a nuisance. We all know that she loves the attention and when people take her side. But can't we get a break once in a while? Marco, also used my homosexuality as a change of subject. Which ended pissing me off by beyond.
Other then that, Drama Club is quite entertaining, especially since I'm friends with everyone in it. Except for a certain someone, but that's because he's my nemesis. Let's just say he said I'm "Too Gay".
Last night, Eva and I went to the Mall with a very close friend, Cristina, we had nothing but a crazy adventure. Involving a fashion show, cat walking down the mall, and buying me boy shorts.
"We so need to do this again!" I yelled as I looked around a lengerie rack.
"Of course!" Cristina reassured.
"yes and this week!" Eva added while she too looked around.
It's quite delicate when you have time for yourself and friends.
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Domingo, Diciembre 7
One can say that I am really pissed off at the moment.
It all started with me having a lovely conversation with my mother, about how I would gladly be able to help her make her wardrobe even more fabulous. A bit shy, she almost agreed, then suddenly my father appares out of nowhere into the picture.
"A man should never tell a woman how to dress, that's not a thing for men." His voice was irritating me.
"What do you mean? I want her to look like this!" I took out a picture from this month's issue of Vogue Magazine.
"That's not for men, end of discussion!"
Enraged by the moment I left the room, I'm still telling my mom that me and her are going shopping. After all, we need some mother-son bonding time; something we haven't had for a long time.
It all started with me having a lovely conversation with my mother, about how I would gladly be able to help her make her wardrobe even more fabulous. A bit shy, she almost agreed, then suddenly my father appares out of nowhere into the picture.
"A man should never tell a woman how to dress, that's not a thing for men." His voice was irritating me.
"What do you mean? I want her to look like this!" I took out a picture from this month's issue of Vogue Magazine.
"That's not for men, end of discussion!"
Enraged by the moment I left the room, I'm still telling my mom that me and her are going shopping. After all, we need some mother-son bonding time; something we haven't had for a long time.
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Jueves, Diciembre 4
Did the Amiable Boy already have my number?
Or perhaps he lost it since his phone got disconnected. Perhaps I should have given it to him again, maybe then we'd be conversing on the phone about right now.
Maybe I should just get over it, since I probably wont be seeing him for another long time.
My audition, well from what I was told, it was phenomenal. Even though after five minutes of reciting my monologue, I froze since I forgot a couple of my lines.
1. I was going to stop and randomly do a Hoe Down like Ashelee Simpson.
2. Pretend that the monologue ended there.
3. Climactically faint and pretend it was part of the scene.
Or,
4. Skip those lines and hurry to the finish with a dramatic yet sexy pose.
I chose four, obviously.
Or perhaps he lost it since his phone got disconnected. Perhaps I should have given it to him again, maybe then we'd be conversing on the phone about right now.
Maybe I should just get over it, since I probably wont be seeing him for another long time.
My audition, well from what I was told, it was phenomenal. Even though after five minutes of reciting my monologue, I froze since I forgot a couple of my lines.
1. I was going to stop and randomly do a Hoe Down like Ashelee Simpson.
2. Pretend that the monologue ended there.
3. Climactically faint and pretend it was part of the scene.
Or,
4. Skip those lines and hurry to the finish with a dramatic yet sexy pose.
I chose four, obviously.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Martes, Diciembre 2
There is this boy - the Amiable Boy.
The Amiable Boy was someone who I had feelings for, okay so perhaps I still have feelings for him. Anyways, he was this boy I met at my library, who's best friends with one of my friends who happens to work there. He's a charming young fellow who has a very captivating yet sensitive smile, he also happens to have dark eyes that I admire. Only meeting him once in the October, we exhanged numbers and talked a few times on the phone. That's when he suddenly didn't call me, which didn't really bother me. Maybe he just wasn't interested in me anymore or perhaps he lost my number; I know I lost his.
Saying he was a lost cause, I carried on with my lovely life.
While at my local library today to visit J and have a lovely conversation, sadly Alex is on maternity leave. Dispensing the books I checked out into the book drop I noticed him, the Amiable Boy. He waved. I softly waved.
Although J and I had an entertaining conversation with a friend which made us laugh a lot. He noticed that I was very distracted by the presence of the boy.
"Go over there and talk to him." He tried to persuade me.
"No it's allright, I'll just try to ignore him."
J made me laugh a lot, which I really did need, he even gave me a fabulous idea on something to do.
At the end, I decided to go up to the Boy and ask him to walk me home, it was already pitch black.
"Of course." He agreed, he then smiled.
Walking me home, the Amiable Boy and I had a cordial conversation, I noticed that I still did like him.
"Thanks for walking me home again." Informing him, I turned to smile at him.
The weather was very chilly, snow was starting to melt in the sidewalks and in the road, the cruel wind was still blowing.
"No problem." He replied.
"I wish I could stay with you a bit longer, but I can't." I purred to him, I probably seemed to have an innocent look on my face.
"I know, but it's allright. My friend is probably waiting for me."
"Well, until we meet again."
I went in to give him a hug, to tell you the truth I atleast wanted to kiss him on the cheek for a thank you. But it probably wasn't the best thing to do, at least from what I think.
"Watch out for the weirdos!" He exlaimed while he was walking off.
"I will! But I hope one of them is you!"
Well, now it's off to practicing my monologue for tomorrows audition for Drama Club. Wish me luck.
The Amiable Boy was someone who I had feelings for, okay so perhaps I still have feelings for him. Anyways, he was this boy I met at my library, who's best friends with one of my friends who happens to work there. He's a charming young fellow who has a very captivating yet sensitive smile, he also happens to have dark eyes that I admire. Only meeting him once in the October, we exhanged numbers and talked a few times on the phone. That's when he suddenly didn't call me, which didn't really bother me. Maybe he just wasn't interested in me anymore or perhaps he lost my number; I know I lost his.
Saying he was a lost cause, I carried on with my lovely life.
While at my local library today to visit J and have a lovely conversation, sadly Alex is on maternity leave. Dispensing the books I checked out into the book drop I noticed him, the Amiable Boy. He waved. I softly waved.
Although J and I had an entertaining conversation with a friend which made us laugh a lot. He noticed that I was very distracted by the presence of the boy.
"Go over there and talk to him." He tried to persuade me.
"No it's allright, I'll just try to ignore him."
J made me laugh a lot, which I really did need, he even gave me a fabulous idea on something to do.
At the end, I decided to go up to the Boy and ask him to walk me home, it was already pitch black.
"Of course." He agreed, he then smiled.
Walking me home, the Amiable Boy and I had a cordial conversation, I noticed that I still did like him.
"Thanks for walking me home again." Informing him, I turned to smile at him.
The weather was very chilly, snow was starting to melt in the sidewalks and in the road, the cruel wind was still blowing.
"No problem." He replied.
"I wish I could stay with you a bit longer, but I can't." I purred to him, I probably seemed to have an innocent look on my face.
"I know, but it's allright. My friend is probably waiting for me."
"Well, until we meet again."
I went in to give him a hug, to tell you the truth I atleast wanted to kiss him on the cheek for a thank you. But it probably wasn't the best thing to do, at least from what I think.
"Watch out for the weirdos!" He exlaimed while he was walking off.
"I will! But I hope one of them is you!"
Well, now it's off to practicing my monologue for tomorrows audition for Drama Club. Wish me luck.
Friday, November 28, 2008
Viernes, Noviembre 28
Black Friday, perhaps the most well-known chaotic yet delightful not offcial holiday of the year. Like most people, I woke up very early in the dark morning to just go to the Mall and spend much cash on goods that I really needed. Which was just a bunch of fashionable clothing from a lovely little fashion boutique and much more. Thank goodness for the agreeable prices that were set for today and only today. I believe that all the morning birds like moi enjoyed and greatly benefited from the discounts. While others sadly arrived too late to find nothing but the rejects. I wasted perhaps around $400 dollars today; probably due to the fact that the prices weren't really lowered down quite much in Banana Republic.
It was like a race to find and obtain everything you wanted and perhaps even needed. The lines were quite much longer then I anticipated, but being a semi-patient person, I got through.
In other news, I have this really exciting idea going through my head.
I want to start my own Book Club.
Thrilling, isn't it?
It was like a race to find and obtain everything you wanted and perhaps even needed. The lines were quite much longer then I anticipated, but being a semi-patient person, I got through.
In other news, I have this really exciting idea going through my head.
I want to start my own Book Club.
Thrilling, isn't it?
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Miercoles, Noviembre 26
Well, there has been many climactic moments pass the three days that I haven't written. A has given us more of her theatrical moments, I know, what else is new? Other than the fact that she has 'ended' her friendship with the lad that she was interested in, or so she says. "I'm just done with him, he called me stupid and that was really pissing me off!" A admonished. After she informed me of that, the guy she was supposably not friends with anymore, appeared. "Hi!" She greeted him. Didn't she just tell me that there would be no more of him? Gone. Terminated. Fin.
Telling Eva about this, she laughed for a few minutes, I laughed with her. Then today I asked where A was. Marco, M's boyfriend then blurted out saying, "Can't tell you! Only a few selected people know. It's an important thing."
Well I really don't give a shit of knowing this 'important' thing. All I did was ask where she was, could you at least say that she was absent? Apparently it's something that really concerned the rest of our friends, which were the few selected to know. Personally I really don't care.
Yesterday, I found out that the new boy that came to our school, has an astonishing secret. He, sadly, is positive of Herpes, which just shocked me. I've never met anyone with Herpes. I have however met someone with AIDS, but never with Herpes. My friend informed me that he couldn't spread it around since he's in a committed relationship with a girl who also has Herpes. Well, I really don't think he had the intention to spread it around in the first place.
Sooner or later, word about this will spread around faster than the Plague. Hopefully the boy won't be in any pain because of this.
Telling Eva about this, she laughed for a few minutes, I laughed with her. Then today I asked where A was. Marco, M's boyfriend then blurted out saying, "Can't tell you! Only a few selected people know. It's an important thing."
Well I really don't give a shit of knowing this 'important' thing. All I did was ask where she was, could you at least say that she was absent? Apparently it's something that really concerned the rest of our friends, which were the few selected to know. Personally I really don't care.
Yesterday, I found out that the new boy that came to our school, has an astonishing secret. He, sadly, is positive of Herpes, which just shocked me. I've never met anyone with Herpes. I have however met someone with AIDS, but never with Herpes. My friend informed me that he couldn't spread it around since he's in a committed relationship with a girl who also has Herpes. Well, I really don't think he had the intention to spread it around in the first place.
Sooner or later, word about this will spread around faster than the Plague. Hopefully the boy won't be in any pain because of this.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Sabado, Noviembre 22
I'm expected to be the community laison for my school's G.S.A (Gay Straight Alliance). Shouldn't be a problem since I've already been at my local LGBT Community Center. Although I am running to be President for my G.S.A, something tells me that I might not win.
Friday, November 21, 2008
Viernes, Noviembre 21
I attended at the movie theatre tonight, with Eva and her lovely mom, who I see as a wonderful woman. It's obvious that we went to see Twilight, apparently it wasn't sold out. Probably just a rumor that was spread so the theatre wouldn't be very full of people. Althought I'm not really a big fan of the book series, but I do enjoy it, I still really wanted to see how the movie would turn out. In my opinion it came out very spectacular and even very close to the book. Even though it was missing a bit of slight details that were featured in the book. I also have to admit that Robert Pattison is a bit sexy.
Other then that, A, came up to me today to tell me her big news. What could it be? I thought to myself. Has she found a new crush? A new date?
No, she's apparently working at a Movie Theatre. Well, seems like a very well-payed job, I hope.
"Lovely darling, now you can get me in for free."
"That's what everyone's saying."
If you knew someone who worked at a place that you go to often, wouldn't you ask for a discount?
Other then that, A, came up to me today to tell me her big news. What could it be? I thought to myself. Has she found a new crush? A new date?
No, she's apparently working at a Movie Theatre. Well, seems like a very well-payed job, I hope.
"Lovely darling, now you can get me in for free."
"That's what everyone's saying."
If you knew someone who worked at a place that you go to often, wouldn't you ask for a discount?
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Jueves, Noviembre 20
Something that I find very jocular that occured today at the end of my day at school. Two young lovely freshman girls came up to me saying how phenomenal I am. They are just the most adorable little freshman girls you've ever seen. One of them asked me where I aquisition my skinny-jeans, I replied, "A lovely little boutique at the mall." They seemed very amazed by my response, one of them just said how cool I am to talk to. Bidding them farewell, one of them stopped me and took out her cellphone.
"Oh. My. God. I just need to take a picture with you! Can I?"
"Of course. Why not?"
Placing my arm around her, as she did the same, we smiled and posed. I thought it was a great photo. Leaving them, I returned with Eva who just had a shocked look.
"Wow, that's kinda creepy." Eva told me as we walked down the long hall.
"Well, I think they're adorable. Why not have fan-girls?"
I think that a lot of girls get animated when they meet a gay guy. I guess we're just more fun, and if there's one thing you should know about us gay guys; is that we just want to have fun!
Tomorrow, Twilight shall finally be released in the big screen, which I never thought would happen. I read the book when it first came out, Eva owns it, so she lets me borrow it. One thing you should know about me, is that I am fond of Vampyres. When I tell people that, they seemed a bit shocked, I guess they don't believe a fashionista could love Vampyres. But it's true. One thing that one should worry about, is how they always change the book when it becomes a movie. Sometimes, the most dissapointing thing a book can have on the cover is, "Now A Motion Picture".
Although I'd love to see it on Friday, tickets are sold out. I'm not shocked at all.
Guess, I'll have to wait until Sunday.
"Oh. My. God. I just need to take a picture with you! Can I?"
"Of course. Why not?"
Placing my arm around her, as she did the same, we smiled and posed. I thought it was a great photo. Leaving them, I returned with Eva who just had a shocked look.
"Wow, that's kinda creepy." Eva told me as we walked down the long hall.
"Well, I think they're adorable. Why not have fan-girls?"
I think that a lot of girls get animated when they meet a gay guy. I guess we're just more fun, and if there's one thing you should know about us gay guys; is that we just want to have fun!
Tomorrow, Twilight shall finally be released in the big screen, which I never thought would happen. I read the book when it first came out, Eva owns it, so she lets me borrow it. One thing you should know about me, is that I am fond of Vampyres. When I tell people that, they seemed a bit shocked, I guess they don't believe a fashionista could love Vampyres. But it's true. One thing that one should worry about, is how they always change the book when it becomes a movie. Sometimes, the most dissapointing thing a book can have on the cover is, "Now A Motion Picture".
Although I'd love to see it on Friday, tickets are sold out. I'm not shocked at all.
Guess, I'll have to wait until Sunday.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Miercoles, Noviembre 19
Young homosexuals like myself, are forever to face the issues of discrimination and homophobia. That's why it is time to take a stand against those who abuse our equal rights. Take the infamous Westoboro Church for a very true example. They have created websites that are just lethargic and pathetic, just to spread the message of hate. And for what? So in the morning they can wake up and hope that all of America will take their message seriously and suddenly kill us?
If there wasn't any homosexuals, I guarantee you that the world will not be the same ever again. People, sooner or later, will start to miss us.
Republicans will surely miss us. They sure hate gay people, but I find it comical how they don't hate gay prostitutes.
Ironic, isn't it?
If there wasn't any homosexuals, I guarantee you that the world will not be the same ever again. People, sooner or later, will start to miss us.
Republicans will surely miss us. They sure hate gay people, but I find it comical how they don't hate gay prostitutes.
Ironic, isn't it?
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Martes, Noviembre 18
Why is it that when I always bring up the subject of men dying their hair, my Grams always has to add that "dying your hair is only for women"? Grams, we live in a new age now, where men not only dye their hair, but also get pedicures and manicures as well. Then again some men do this, not all. Can you just imagine the day when I tell her I'm homosexual? I have a feeling that if I tell her, that maybe I should bring something to hide behind.
Another thing that has been vexatious, is that my father always has to correct me everytime I act like a flamboyant feminine homosexual(which is all the time). It always starts out with me acting as I always act, and in the background you'll either here:
"Habla bien mijo!" Or a "A si no se acta un hombre!"
I've come to the conclusion that maybe, the family is in denial.
Another thing that has been vexatious, is that my father always has to correct me everytime I act like a flamboyant feminine homosexual(which is all the time). It always starts out with me acting as I always act, and in the background you'll either here:
"Habla bien mijo!" Or a "A si no se acta un hombre!"
I've come to the conclusion that maybe, the family is in denial.
Monday, November 17, 2008
Lunes, Noviembre 17
Why is it that everytime the mood is going great at my school lunch, A then brings up her ex boyfriend? She claims that she's over the lad, but is she really? Eva and I think not. Today, I've noticed many new things about A, that I haven't seen about her ever since she started going out with that boy. She had her long dirty blonde hair cut, so now it's a bit shorter then it was before. Why? Because her boyfriend always wanted her to have it long. She wears much more makeup then she ever did. Why? Because her boyfriend never really wanted much cosmetics used on her. She now wears the cross she hadn't worn in a long time. Why? Due to the fact that her ex was an aitheist.
Which all of this leads up to the point, that A changed a lot about herself just to please him. When in fact, you are never suppose to change yourself for someone in a relationship. Otherwise, you're not really who you are. But rather someone who they want you to be.
Other then her being climatic in the lunch hour, she seems to be doing lovely. Or so that's what she wants us to think.
Lately, she's been trying to get a boy she fancies, to get jealous of another guy that she fancies also. Darling, please stop with the whole inane drama. We do not need it. I admit, that every gay likes a bit of drama. Oh, who am I kidding? We love it! I love watching her drama especially. But sooner or later, she pulls you into it; then claims that this has nothing to do with you. Which can be bothersome.
Other then that, my day went lovely.
Which all of this leads up to the point, that A changed a lot about herself just to please him. When in fact, you are never suppose to change yourself for someone in a relationship. Otherwise, you're not really who you are. But rather someone who they want you to be.
Other then her being climatic in the lunch hour, she seems to be doing lovely. Or so that's what she wants us to think.
Lately, she's been trying to get a boy she fancies, to get jealous of another guy that she fancies also. Darling, please stop with the whole inane drama. We do not need it. I admit, that every gay likes a bit of drama. Oh, who am I kidding? We love it! I love watching her drama especially. But sooner or later, she pulls you into it; then claims that this has nothing to do with you. Which can be bothersome.
Other then that, my day went lovely.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Domingo, Noviembre 16
Today was the Birthday of a close friend of mine, she of course invited me to her celebration. Although Eva and I were planning on going, since we assured her that we'd be there for her, Eva decided not to go on the last minute. You see, she's very well-known for her headaches, that A accused her once of using that as a false excuse. I'll have you know that she really does receieve these distressing head aches. Like I've mentioned many times, we all have extrordinary traits. Eva encouraged me to go without her, after all it would be all of our close friends. Sadly, I couldn't go due to the fact that Eva was my only ride. I'm afraid to say that I still don't have my own car. My father didn't even know how to get there, which I told him not to worry. I just wouldn't go.
There wasn't anyone that were answering their mobiles, that's when I came across a very familiar number. The number of The Ex which I haven't talked to after our last dramatic party encounter. Which I'll never forgive A for. Desperate times call for desperate measures. He answered after I asked for him.
"Are you going to go to the party?"
"Yeah, I am. Are you?" He asked, his voice still sounded the same as always; casual.
"Unfortunately not, Eva can't go and she was my only way of getting there." I answered him, there was still a bit of an ackward feeling.
"Oh, that sucks. I'd give you a ride if I could, but I can't."
Well, thanks for letting me know that you can't give me a ride.
"It's alright, just wish her the best of congrats to her for me."
"I will."
"Okay. Bye."
"Bye."
Putting the phone down, I layed on my bed feeling terrible since I promised her I would go. Turns out that promise would be broken. My thoughts went back to my ex, and my last encounter with him at a very climatic festivity. A, took the chance to make me do sexual things to him, while we were playing an old fashion game of, 'Truth or Dare?'. It led to a lap dance, to much more. I have no feelings for him anymore and he has established the same. The worst part of this, is that he's Eva's cousin.
Lucky for me, they don't speak much.
There wasn't anyone that were answering their mobiles, that's when I came across a very familiar number. The number of The Ex which I haven't talked to after our last dramatic party encounter. Which I'll never forgive A for. Desperate times call for desperate measures. He answered after I asked for him.
"Are you going to go to the party?"
"Yeah, I am. Are you?" He asked, his voice still sounded the same as always; casual.
"Unfortunately not, Eva can't go and she was my only way of getting there." I answered him, there was still a bit of an ackward feeling.
"Oh, that sucks. I'd give you a ride if I could, but I can't."
Well, thanks for letting me know that you can't give me a ride.
"It's alright, just wish her the best of congrats to her for me."
"I will."
"Okay. Bye."
"Bye."
Putting the phone down, I layed on my bed feeling terrible since I promised her I would go. Turns out that promise would be broken. My thoughts went back to my ex, and my last encounter with him at a very climatic festivity. A, took the chance to make me do sexual things to him, while we were playing an old fashion game of, 'Truth or Dare?'. It led to a lap dance, to much more. I have no feelings for him anymore and he has established the same. The worst part of this, is that he's Eva's cousin.
Lucky for me, they don't speak much.
Friday, November 14, 2008
Viernes, Noviembre 14
Drawing class had commenced, I always look forward to this exuberant class, not just because Eva's adorable cousin has it with me, but also because of my dear friends May and Mimi. May, I'd met when I was a freshman, she's one year older then me, she's an energetic playful girl. Mimi, I just recently got to know, she's also fun to converse with in class with May. The three of us sit together, which can only mean anarchy. We probably are the loudest ones in the class, but it's always due to the fact that we're just laughing. Yet May can laugh much more than both of us and she can laugh for five minutes straight to something that wasn't even that amusing. Oh well, we all have our weird traits.
Eva's Cousin, was sitting in his table for two, very lonely. His friend hadn't showed up. I thought about joining him, maybe start a conversation. Although I wasn't going to do it, May encouraged me. Well, I would, but he isn't gay. She merely said that I should sit with him as a friend and not flirt. So I did. Yet, it was a bit more friendlier than usual.
"Hey, you seem lonely." I stood next to him, my eyes on his illusional black and white drawing. "Your friend didn't show up."
"Yeah I know, but I'm holding up." He replied as he kept using his Sharpie to color.
"Well, I'd sit with you, but I have my bitches over there." I always joke with my friends by calling them bitches, it's funny for me.
He laughed a bit then looked up at me, "That's okay."
"Well, your drawing is coming better than mine, I'm half-way done but it doesn't even look like that." Informing him, I raised my own Opt Art, I was ashamed of it.
Chuckleling, he then showed me his, which was way better and much more creative than mine.
"I was also going to ask you for your marker, mine died a bit too early. But then I realized that you need it more than I do."
"Oh, I'm sorry."
"Don't worry about it." After that, I went back to sit down with May and Mimi, who were both smiling. I just got back to my work.
Later, I noticed he had his head down, I walked toward him, this time sitting on the desolated chair next to him. His hair was a buzzcut, jet black, the same color as mine, his skin was tan, he really was cute. Plus he had this really charming accent, he was of course Puertorican.
"Psssttt," I hissed at him silently, he then raised his head slowly, looking up at me, "Hey, are you finished with your marker?"Asking him, he then toook it in his hand and opened the cap.
"It doesn't work anymore, mine also died." He informed me, he wasn't even finished with his coloring.
"Oh damn, I'm sorry. I'll ask the Miss if she has anymore."
After that, I had finished my Opt Art and he also completed his. The bell ringing, students rushed out the door like a stampede of zebras from Africa. I met up with my twin, Eva.
"Yeah, I just wished I could've just caught a glimpse of this guy." Telling Eva this, she gave me a suspicous look.
"What guy?"
"Ummm....no one." I lied.
"Beau, I know who, I knew the moment you said 'no one'."
True, I could never lie to Eva, she knew right away.
"I'm sorry but, he's that cute!"
"Beau, no! He probably doesn't even know you're flirting with him, he's straight you know!"
True, very true, he's straight and I'm gay. We're from two different worlds. Something that I always apprehend everytime I crush on a heterosexual man. He probably didn't even know I liked him, he just might have thought I was being friendly. At that moment, I decided that I should stop pursuiting him. Yes he's adorable, but some day he'll be a very good guy for a lucky girl. It hurts, it does hurt a lot knowing that you always fall for someone who doesn't have the same sexuality as you. Having those feelings for that person, knowing that they'll never have those feelings for you. Everything happens for a reason. Hopefully I'll find a guy that I'm really crazy for and feels the same way for me soon. Right now, I'm just glad I'm not alone. You're never truly alone, all you need is just a friend. The right friend, and you're in a safe place. Today, has been okay.
Eva's Cousin, was sitting in his table for two, very lonely. His friend hadn't showed up. I thought about joining him, maybe start a conversation. Although I wasn't going to do it, May encouraged me. Well, I would, but he isn't gay. She merely said that I should sit with him as a friend and not flirt. So I did. Yet, it was a bit more friendlier than usual.
"Hey, you seem lonely." I stood next to him, my eyes on his illusional black and white drawing. "Your friend didn't show up."
"Yeah I know, but I'm holding up." He replied as he kept using his Sharpie to color.
"Well, I'd sit with you, but I have my bitches over there." I always joke with my friends by calling them bitches, it's funny for me.
He laughed a bit then looked up at me, "That's okay."
"Well, your drawing is coming better than mine, I'm half-way done but it doesn't even look like that." Informing him, I raised my own Opt Art, I was ashamed of it.
Chuckleling, he then showed me his, which was way better and much more creative than mine.
"I was also going to ask you for your marker, mine died a bit too early. But then I realized that you need it more than I do."
"Oh, I'm sorry."
"Don't worry about it." After that, I went back to sit down with May and Mimi, who were both smiling. I just got back to my work.
Later, I noticed he had his head down, I walked toward him, this time sitting on the desolated chair next to him. His hair was a buzzcut, jet black, the same color as mine, his skin was tan, he really was cute. Plus he had this really charming accent, he was of course Puertorican.
"Psssttt," I hissed at him silently, he then raised his head slowly, looking up at me, "Hey, are you finished with your marker?"Asking him, he then toook it in his hand and opened the cap.
"It doesn't work anymore, mine also died." He informed me, he wasn't even finished with his coloring.
"Oh damn, I'm sorry. I'll ask the Miss if she has anymore."
After that, I had finished my Opt Art and he also completed his. The bell ringing, students rushed out the door like a stampede of zebras from Africa. I met up with my twin, Eva.
"Yeah, I just wished I could've just caught a glimpse of this guy." Telling Eva this, she gave me a suspicous look.
"What guy?"
"Ummm....no one." I lied.
"Beau, I know who, I knew the moment you said 'no one'."
True, I could never lie to Eva, she knew right away.
"I'm sorry but, he's that cute!"
"Beau, no! He probably doesn't even know you're flirting with him, he's straight you know!"
True, very true, he's straight and I'm gay. We're from two different worlds. Something that I always apprehend everytime I crush on a heterosexual man. He probably didn't even know I liked him, he just might have thought I was being friendly. At that moment, I decided that I should stop pursuiting him. Yes he's adorable, but some day he'll be a very good guy for a lucky girl. It hurts, it does hurt a lot knowing that you always fall for someone who doesn't have the same sexuality as you. Having those feelings for that person, knowing that they'll never have those feelings for you. Everything happens for a reason. Hopefully I'll find a guy that I'm really crazy for and feels the same way for me soon. Right now, I'm just glad I'm not alone. You're never truly alone, all you need is just a friend. The right friend, and you're in a safe place. Today, has been okay.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Jueves, Noviembre 13
We all have our weaknesses, do we not? Wether it's falling for the temptation to drink an alcohol beverage or smoking a fag. We all have our personal debilidad. Mine is just always having a crush on a heterosexual man. For example: Eva's lovely Cousin. Ever since I've laid eyes on him, I just couldn't help, but to fall for him, like how a cheerleader falls for the captain of a football team. Eva though, get's a bit annoyed that I always mention him.
Today, in Drawing Class (I'm a Writer not a Drawer, but it's fun) I needed an eraser.
"Anyone that's very kind that has an eraser, would be willing to kindly let me borrow their eraser?" I enquired the whole class.
Only one girl responded, yet her eraser miserably failed to help me. That's when Eva's cousin appeared.
"Hey, here you go." He said as he handed me the eraser.
With a jubilant flirtacious smile, I replied, "Thank you so much."
Friend of my turned to me, with a devious smile.
"No problem." He shot back, as he walked away with a smile on his face.
Yes, he's cute. Yes, I like him a lot. No he's not gay, but a girl can dream.
Right?
Today, in Drawing Class (I'm a Writer not a Drawer, but it's fun) I needed an eraser.
"Anyone that's very kind that has an eraser, would be willing to kindly let me borrow their eraser?" I enquired the whole class.
Only one girl responded, yet her eraser miserably failed to help me. That's when Eva's cousin appeared.
"Hey, here you go." He said as he handed me the eraser.
With a jubilant flirtacious smile, I replied, "Thank you so much."
Friend of my turned to me, with a devious smile.
"No problem." He shot back, as he walked away with a smile on his face.
Yes, he's cute. Yes, I like him a lot. No he's not gay, but a girl can dream.
Right?
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Miercoles, Noviembre 12
Why does Highschool have to be such a challenge these days? You can't have a trip to the restroom, without having a safety officer hover over your shoulder like a stalker. The hallways are traffic. The obnoxious lethargic people have to yell out rude comments to you. The only way you can get into lunch, is like getting into a club. You have an I.D, with the proper requirements, you're in. If you don't, good luck getting in.
These days, I can get ready for school in my sleep, so over-sleeping isn't such a bad thing for me. What you need is: a sexy kick ass outfit, stunning hair, and a big smile. That isn't so hard, now is it?
After school, I popped in for a visit to my local library, had a conversation with J, met a lesbian and got a very interesting book.
JoJo, the lesbian, is a very comical girl, me and her were having a debate. She claims us men, are disgusting and that's the reason why she doesn't date us. While I said, you're one of the reasons I don't date women (other then the fact that I'm not attracted to them). We also had a little diva moment, where I got her to shut up.
"Could you tell I'm lesbian?" I looked up from my cellphone to answer her question.
"In a way...yes." I answered her.
After that, I had a book to pick up:
Boyfriend 101: A Guide for Gay Men on finding Romance
Well, I'm having trouble finding the right guy, might as well get a little help.
These days, I can get ready for school in my sleep, so over-sleeping isn't such a bad thing for me. What you need is: a sexy kick ass outfit, stunning hair, and a big smile. That isn't so hard, now is it?
After school, I popped in for a visit to my local library, had a conversation with J, met a lesbian and got a very interesting book.
JoJo, the lesbian, is a very comical girl, me and her were having a debate. She claims us men, are disgusting and that's the reason why she doesn't date us. While I said, you're one of the reasons I don't date women (other then the fact that I'm not attracted to them). We also had a little diva moment, where I got her to shut up.
"Could you tell I'm lesbian?" I looked up from my cellphone to answer her question.
"In a way...yes." I answered her.
After that, I had a book to pick up:
Boyfriend 101: A Guide for Gay Men on finding Romance
Well, I'm having trouble finding the right guy, might as well get a little help.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Martes, Noviembre 11
Although the bleached snow did fall onto the urban streets of my town, it quickly melted over midnight, thank goodness. I'm pretty sure that it'll come back and this time make its stay even longer. I guess I'll have to help and shovel sooner and later, but I can be quite lazy at times. New quarter at Highschool, new classes, new people to meet. I yet have not accomplished the task of having the same lunch as my twin, Eva, it'll be soon, but I did get A. A is quite much more dramatic at lunch. Take for example:
Today, friend Marco had a secret who told us about, yet he wasn't going to share. I find that very juvenile. How are you going to mention that there's a secret, yet not tell us what it is? Please, spare us the lethargic guessing games and just tell us or not.
"Marco, please tell me! I know it's about me, it's about me and the guy who wants to go out with me. Isn't it?" A, kept begging like a child.
"Can't tell you, you'll find out in two weeks."
"I can't wait that long!" She pleaded.
A, please just stop with the dramatic pleads, it's annoying me.
"Hun, have you might have thought that it isn't about you?" I asked her, Marco told me it wasn't about her, she although, was delusional.
"I know it's about me!" A yelled as she turned to Marco with a devious look.
Even though A is a lovely young stunning girl, she can also be the most stereotypic blonde popular bitch from TV or the movies. She claims her life is nothing but Drama, well until she gets pregnant, I'll think otherwise.
There was actually never a boy that she wanted to introduced me to, apparently she just wanted me to meet a guy who she likes. She doesn't know I know though, M told me.
Apparently, it was National Fight Day at my Highschool. Lovely isn't it?
Four fights that went down, one I witnessed, one I was stunned by.
In my last class, there's a boy who's a Hispanic Punk Rocker, just like how I used to be. Until I read Vogue Magazine. He's actually kinda cute, except I know he isn't gay. My friend C, thinks otherwise.
"Beau, pssssttt?" She whispered to me from her table.
"Yes?"
"He's checking you out!"
She meant the Punk Rocker.
"Stop joking, he isn't."
"Oh he is, trust me, I've had a lot of guys check me out. He just did it to you."
That isn't a lie, I've seen the guys look at her.
"Maybe he was just looking at me." I replied.
"No, he was checking you out."
"Fine C, whatever you think."
"I think you two would make a cute couple."
"Awww, thank you!"
The rest of the class, she kept telling me to look at his direction, everytime I did, he'd turn his head away. Looks like he was observing me all the time. I also have another class with him. Perhaps he's curious?
Today, friend Marco had a secret who told us about, yet he wasn't going to share. I find that very juvenile. How are you going to mention that there's a secret, yet not tell us what it is? Please, spare us the lethargic guessing games and just tell us or not.
"Marco, please tell me! I know it's about me, it's about me and the guy who wants to go out with me. Isn't it?" A, kept begging like a child.
"Can't tell you, you'll find out in two weeks."
"I can't wait that long!" She pleaded.
A, please just stop with the dramatic pleads, it's annoying me.
"Hun, have you might have thought that it isn't about you?" I asked her, Marco told me it wasn't about her, she although, was delusional.
"I know it's about me!" A yelled as she turned to Marco with a devious look.
Even though A is a lovely young stunning girl, she can also be the most stereotypic blonde popular bitch from TV or the movies. She claims her life is nothing but Drama, well until she gets pregnant, I'll think otherwise.
There was actually never a boy that she wanted to introduced me to, apparently she just wanted me to meet a guy who she likes. She doesn't know I know though, M told me.
Apparently, it was National Fight Day at my Highschool. Lovely isn't it?
Four fights that went down, one I witnessed, one I was stunned by.
In my last class, there's a boy who's a Hispanic Punk Rocker, just like how I used to be. Until I read Vogue Magazine. He's actually kinda cute, except I know he isn't gay. My friend C, thinks otherwise.
"Beau, pssssttt?" She whispered to me from her table.
"Yes?"
"He's checking you out!"
She meant the Punk Rocker.
"Stop joking, he isn't."
"Oh he is, trust me, I've had a lot of guys check me out. He just did it to you."
That isn't a lie, I've seen the guys look at her.
"Maybe he was just looking at me." I replied.
"No, he was checking you out."
"Fine C, whatever you think."
"I think you two would make a cute couple."
"Awww, thank you!"
The rest of the class, she kept telling me to look at his direction, everytime I did, he'd turn his head away. Looks like he was observing me all the time. I also have another class with him. Perhaps he's curious?
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Domingo, Noviembre 9
My eyes caught with astonishment, the first snow of November being blown around by the not so chilly wind. The dry leaves of Autumn are slowly cloaked by the ghastly snow, my heated face slowly rests on the cold window. Although the snow is beautiful, it can be quite dreadful as well, I personally don't like it when it snows too much. Why can't it just snow in Christmas and then leave? When I was young, I use to try so hard to make a snowman, it as the most difficult challenge I've ever faced. It wasn't until at the age of 12 that I finally made my first snowman, looking back at it now makes me laugh.
Yesterday, I got a call from A, inviting me to go to the Mall with her and some others friends I knew, such as M. Immediately I was going to say yes, but I got a suspicious feeling, A and another friend were laughing. I wondered why. She kept saying how someone wanted me here so bad.
"Well I we just really wanted you to join us, M wants you to come here really bad." She informed me, I lied and said I didn't have a ride.
"Damn, that sucks! Can you try to find one?"
"Sure, I'll call you back." I answered her, pushing the off button, I dialed Eva's number.
"A invited me to the mall, a few friends I know, two others that I do not. I have a leery feeling about this." Notifying her about this, we then came to the conclusion that A isn't really trustworthy.
"I wish I could go with you, but I'm too busy with other things." Responded Eva, as I layed on my bed.
"I'll just lie and say I can't go."
Calling A, she then answered in laughter, something entertaining was going on.
"Oh sorry you have no ride, it's just that we wanted to see you."
"Yeah I know, tempting, but I can't, sorry."
I called back Eva to tell her what A said, she then told me what they probably were up to.
"I believe that they wanted to introduce you to a boy," she murmured on the phone, "A boy who is probably straight, they just wanted him to freak out."
"Yeah, thought so." Replied I, as I organized a few books in my room, I'm a neat freak.
Maybe the boy was gay, maybe he wasn't, sometimes A likes to introduce me to her straight guy friends just to scare them. I find that very inane. But, what if it was a gay guy they wanted me to be introduced to, they know I'm single and have been looking. I'll just have to find out tomorrow, although we will have new classes since the new quarter of the summester starts tomorrow.
I've been searching for a perfect guy to date for a couple of months, I've met some, but they aren't what I'm looking for. Most of them just want me for sex. J told me that I should just hoping and let it come to me, that's how life works after all. You want something so bad, yet you can't get it. Once you stop wanting it, you get it. I've seen it happen before. That's life after all right?
Grams was watching the spanish news this morning, they were talking about the Gay Marriage issue, which I hope they legalize.
"California will end like the two cities that were destroyed by God in the bible." She acquainted me, as I sat down next to her on the sofa.
"So you're saying that history is repeating itsself?" I enquired her, she looked at me.
"Perhaps."
I love my Grams, I love her so much, but I just hate it that she always tells me these things. Everytime I want to tell her so bad, "Well guess what Grams, I'm gay myself!"
Oh that'll be the day.
Yesterday, I got a call from A, inviting me to go to the Mall with her and some others friends I knew, such as M. Immediately I was going to say yes, but I got a suspicious feeling, A and another friend were laughing. I wondered why. She kept saying how someone wanted me here so bad.
"Well I we just really wanted you to join us, M wants you to come here really bad." She informed me, I lied and said I didn't have a ride.
"Damn, that sucks! Can you try to find one?"
"Sure, I'll call you back." I answered her, pushing the off button, I dialed Eva's number.
"A invited me to the mall, a few friends I know, two others that I do not. I have a leery feeling about this." Notifying her about this, we then came to the conclusion that A isn't really trustworthy.
"I wish I could go with you, but I'm too busy with other things." Responded Eva, as I layed on my bed.
"I'll just lie and say I can't go."
Calling A, she then answered in laughter, something entertaining was going on.
"Oh sorry you have no ride, it's just that we wanted to see you."
"Yeah I know, tempting, but I can't, sorry."
I called back Eva to tell her what A said, she then told me what they probably were up to.
"I believe that they wanted to introduce you to a boy," she murmured on the phone, "A boy who is probably straight, they just wanted him to freak out."
"Yeah, thought so." Replied I, as I organized a few books in my room, I'm a neat freak.
Maybe the boy was gay, maybe he wasn't, sometimes A likes to introduce me to her straight guy friends just to scare them. I find that very inane. But, what if it was a gay guy they wanted me to be introduced to, they know I'm single and have been looking. I'll just have to find out tomorrow, although we will have new classes since the new quarter of the summester starts tomorrow.
I've been searching for a perfect guy to date for a couple of months, I've met some, but they aren't what I'm looking for. Most of them just want me for sex. J told me that I should just hoping and let it come to me, that's how life works after all. You want something so bad, yet you can't get it. Once you stop wanting it, you get it. I've seen it happen before. That's life after all right?
Grams was watching the spanish news this morning, they were talking about the Gay Marriage issue, which I hope they legalize.
"California will end like the two cities that were destroyed by God in the bible." She acquainted me, as I sat down next to her on the sofa.
"So you're saying that history is repeating itsself?" I enquired her, she looked at me.
"Perhaps."
I love my Grams, I love her so much, but I just hate it that she always tells me these things. Everytime I want to tell her so bad, "Well guess what Grams, I'm gay myself!"
Oh that'll be the day.
Friday, November 7, 2008
Viernes, Noviembre 7
Madonna was being played loudly from the iPod Dock, as I was doing my weekly workout in my bedroom. Doing some impressive streches, that impressed me, then doing fourty ab crunches on the floor. You need to do at least one work out per week, well if you're not really lazy at the moment. I really didn't feel like going to the Gym, and I really don't like going by myself. After finishing, I took a remarkable steamy shower to get rid of the sweat. A couple hours later, I decided to call Eva on the phone, I wanted to see what she was up to.
"No, get into this pose! Sis, this picture looks ugly!" She yelled at her sister, even though she was on the phone with me.
I love listening to her argue with her younger sister, it's priceless.
"Yeah, she's a bit too young to try to look like a stripper." I informed Eva, as she chuckled a bit at the comment.
"No, not that pose! I swear to God, she's trying to act sexy, which is not working. She's getting this from her little friends, I saw their pictures. I mean seriously, they have their hands spread out on the wall, they look like they just got arrested!"
I quickly bursted out laughing on the phone with her, she was laughing her ass off too. After a few minutes of fixing her sister's pictures, then deleting the terrible ones, I reminded her how amusing it is when she's irritated.
"Maybe we should take some photos of A and bag on her."
"That'd be easy!"
We were just joking around though.
Eva then uploaded the pictures of her sister to her myspace, very irritated that she even yelled at her father.
"It's downstairs dad! So why don't you go tra-la-la down there!" Eva roared to her father as she tried her best not let me get yelled at as well.
All I did was laugh at what was going on. I love my twin.
She then began reviewing the pictures of her sister, deleting most of them. She's brutally honest, which I love.
"I sware, she looks pretty when she acts natural, she looks like a mess when she tries to look pretty."
"It takes a lot of work to make a mess look beautiful."
We ended up laughing to the end of the conversation. Ah, good times.
"No, get into this pose! Sis, this picture looks ugly!" She yelled at her sister, even though she was on the phone with me.
I love listening to her argue with her younger sister, it's priceless.
"Yeah, she's a bit too young to try to look like a stripper." I informed Eva, as she chuckled a bit at the comment.
"No, not that pose! I swear to God, she's trying to act sexy, which is not working. She's getting this from her little friends, I saw their pictures. I mean seriously, they have their hands spread out on the wall, they look like they just got arrested!"
I quickly bursted out laughing on the phone with her, she was laughing her ass off too. After a few minutes of fixing her sister's pictures, then deleting the terrible ones, I reminded her how amusing it is when she's irritated.
"Maybe we should take some photos of A and bag on her."
"That'd be easy!"
We were just joking around though.
Eva then uploaded the pictures of her sister to her myspace, very irritated that she even yelled at her father.
"It's downstairs dad! So why don't you go tra-la-la down there!" Eva roared to her father as she tried her best not let me get yelled at as well.
All I did was laugh at what was going on. I love my twin.
She then began reviewing the pictures of her sister, deleting most of them. She's brutally honest, which I love.
"I sware, she looks pretty when she acts natural, she looks like a mess when she tries to look pretty."
"It takes a lot of work to make a mess look beautiful."
We ended up laughing to the end of the conversation. Ah, good times.
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Jueves, Noviembre 6
There were images of the protests that were going on in California, on the Tv. I was very proud of everyone who took part of it, to fight for our gay rights. I was laying on the crimson sofa, the black controler on my right hand, my brother suddenly walked in. He's younger then me, cocky and annoying little boy.
"Wow." He said under his breath, he then looked at me as if he wanted to say something about.
"I'm glad they're fighting for their rights." I said as I turned up the volume, a blank look on my face. I really wanted to say, we're.
My family dislike homosexuals, I'd say that they're homophobic, which makes my life even more difficult. My father was talking to my mother about the protest in the morning, I didn't really get to hear every single word they were saying.
Apparently it's wrong.
"I'm glad that they're doing everything they can." At the moment I was talking to my Grams, she's a religous woman.
"It's a sin, I'm just glad you're not like them." She replied as she looekd up from her bible to face me.
I believe that was suppose to mean something.
"Wow." He said under his breath, he then looked at me as if he wanted to say something about.
"I'm glad they're fighting for their rights." I said as I turned up the volume, a blank look on my face. I really wanted to say, we're.
My family dislike homosexuals, I'd say that they're homophobic, which makes my life even more difficult. My father was talking to my mother about the protest in the morning, I didn't really get to hear every single word they were saying.
Apparently it's wrong.
"I'm glad that they're doing everything they can." At the moment I was talking to my Grams, she's a religous woman.
"It's a sin, I'm just glad you're not like them." She replied as she looekd up from her bible to face me.
I believe that was suppose to mean something.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Miercoles, Noviembre 5
Obama wins the Election and everyone celebrates the historical moment, the first black president of the United States. In other news, Obama's wife recieves such good criticism for her dress she wore that night, which in my opinion looked fabulous on her. Today in my highschool, all everyone could talk about was how excited they were that Obama had won, after that, everyone got back to class and did their final exams.
"Oh my God, he's coming over my house tonight." A murmured to me as she was talking about the old flame I had mentioned.
"Well, I think it's a good idea to reconnect with him, after all he really does care about you, " I replied as I took a bite out of the delicious banana, "You seem very happy about it."
"Well, it should be fun."
Well, it depends if you don't mention the ex.
A then started conversing to me about the details of the sex she had with her ex, which I found pretty interesting. Apparently, it was nothing but atrocious sex that they always had, although she lied that it was great.
"Oh we are so going to spread this around, no girl will then sleep with him." Whispering this to her as a joke, she then gave me a blank look.
"No we are not spreading this around!" She barked at me with a bit of irritation in her voice.
Honey, could you not tell it was a joke?
"Realx love, I was just joking around."
In a few minutes, you see A walking around the classroom telling our other friends about her intimate experience with the ex. So much for not spreading it around.
After the half day at school was over, I gave another daily visit to my aberrant public library that's near my home. It's a very small library, althought it holds plenty of books and computers, that tend to be the main attraction. The only reason why todays youth goes to the library, is to mostly just use the free internet that is provided. You see the computers are like a limited source, sort of like gold. One is free, you immediately occupy it before anyone else does. There are the Myspace people, people who just use it for chatting online, then there are the Runescape and other RP Games people. Once in a while, you'll see someone who actually needs it for homework, which is rare.
Apparently, there was some sort of situation that had occured, Alex, who's the security guard, told me the details.
"A teenage girl, she had lice all over her hair! They were literally jumping off her head!" Her face was filled with laughter yet with a bit of disgust.
"Thank goodness you kicked her out, otherwise we would've needed to quarantine this place."
"What's funny about it, is that she denied that she had lice!"
"Maybe the lice were her only friends."
After discussing this, the Arousing Alluring Spanish Computer Teacher arrived for his classes. I always have the biggest smirk on my face everytime I see him. He's always well dressed, well groomed and even has the most voluptous accent you've ever heard. I've flirted with him, he's a married man, but I just can't help it. Or so I think he's married, I've seen a ring. Yet, I can't help but to think that he might at least be bisexual, he strikes a bit on my gay-dar.
He always comes up to me, greeting me and everytime he winks at me. It could be that he's just being friendly to me, but everytime he winks, I get this sensational feeling. J told me he might be interested in me. We're not sure though.
"Hey, how are you?" He asked with his sexy accent, he's from South America.
"I'm great, and you?" I replied as my eyes were locked onto his.
"That's good, I'm fine thank you." He ended that with his smile, asking J for assisance, he then turned to me while J wasn't looking and gave me another wink. I couldn't help but to just give him the same smile as always.
"Oh my God, he's coming over my house tonight." A murmured to me as she was talking about the old flame I had mentioned.
"Well, I think it's a good idea to reconnect with him, after all he really does care about you, " I replied as I took a bite out of the delicious banana, "You seem very happy about it."
"Well, it should be fun."
Well, it depends if you don't mention the ex.
A then started conversing to me about the details of the sex she had with her ex, which I found pretty interesting. Apparently, it was nothing but atrocious sex that they always had, although she lied that it was great.
"Oh we are so going to spread this around, no girl will then sleep with him." Whispering this to her as a joke, she then gave me a blank look.
"No we are not spreading this around!" She barked at me with a bit of irritation in her voice.
Honey, could you not tell it was a joke?
"Realx love, I was just joking around."
In a few minutes, you see A walking around the classroom telling our other friends about her intimate experience with the ex. So much for not spreading it around.
After the half day at school was over, I gave another daily visit to my aberrant public library that's near my home. It's a very small library, althought it holds plenty of books and computers, that tend to be the main attraction. The only reason why todays youth goes to the library, is to mostly just use the free internet that is provided. You see the computers are like a limited source, sort of like gold. One is free, you immediately occupy it before anyone else does. There are the Myspace people, people who just use it for chatting online, then there are the Runescape and other RP Games people. Once in a while, you'll see someone who actually needs it for homework, which is rare.
Apparently, there was some sort of situation that had occured, Alex, who's the security guard, told me the details.
"A teenage girl, she had lice all over her hair! They were literally jumping off her head!" Her face was filled with laughter yet with a bit of disgust.
"Thank goodness you kicked her out, otherwise we would've needed to quarantine this place."
"What's funny about it, is that she denied that she had lice!"
"Maybe the lice were her only friends."
After discussing this, the Arousing Alluring Spanish Computer Teacher arrived for his classes. I always have the biggest smirk on my face everytime I see him. He's always well dressed, well groomed and even has the most voluptous accent you've ever heard. I've flirted with him, he's a married man, but I just can't help it. Or so I think he's married, I've seen a ring. Yet, I can't help but to think that he might at least be bisexual, he strikes a bit on my gay-dar.
He always comes up to me, greeting me and everytime he winks at me. It could be that he's just being friendly to me, but everytime he winks, I get this sensational feeling. J told me he might be interested in me. We're not sure though.
"Hey, how are you?" He asked with his sexy accent, he's from South America.
"I'm great, and you?" I replied as my eyes were locked onto his.
"That's good, I'm fine thank you." He ended that with his smile, asking J for assisance, he then turned to me while J wasn't looking and gave me another wink. I couldn't help but to just give him the same smile as always.
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Martes, Noviembre 4
Ah, election day has finally arrived, and it's mostly nothing but chaos around the cities. School was filled with nothing but politics, the library was filled with nothing but insane voters. I do understand that history is being made, I just hate the fact that everyone is putting fear into voting. The fact that Obama has stated that he is for Gay rights, such as gay marriage, has influenced me to go for him. Then there are other reasons why I go for him. I really don't care if he's black or not, I disagree with a few things about him, just like I disagree with a few things about McCain. Yet, the conclusion of who's the new president shall be revealed soon. Hopefully no riots shall occur.
The friend with the boyfriend troubles, A, has finally decided to forget his inane ass and now is up for moving on.
"I don't want anything to do with him, and I give up!" She yelled in the class we were in together, I rooted for her.
"She's got my vote." Said Eva as I talked to her about what A said.
Although she doesn't want to be in a relationship for a while, she is probably going to reconnect with an old flame. Let's see what happens.
Friend of mine, M, decided to break up with her boyfriend, who I sorta favor, she even planned it for after-school. She asked me what she should say to him, I gave her a proper and sensitive way to tell him.
"Thanks, that's better then what I came up with in an hour."
Oh how much I love M. I just feel bad for the boyfriend, he really is sweet. Wish he was gay.
I also realized, thanks to the help of a dear friend, Feido, that I don't need a boyfriend, since I have a kick ass twin, Eva. Althought I sorta knew that already, I gave Feido a big hug. Sometimes you don't need a boyfriend to comfort you at times, it's always a very splendid best friend who you need. They'll always be there for you, if they're a true friend, of course.
Walking to the library to visit my friends J and Alex, a girl about my age was walking with a friend and her younger sister.
"Heeeyyyy." Her sluggish voice yelled in a very wannabe-gay manner to make fun of me.
"Hey hoe!" I yelled back with a smile, she stopped and stood with her mouth open.
People who try to bother gay people, are always shocked that we tend to defend ourselves and usually win. I find it inadequate that certain people waste their breath to yell woeful things to someone who they don't even know. Shows you how the world is these days. Coming back from the library, after telling J and Alex what happened at the party, I returned home and listened to lovely music. There was nothing to do, but just reminisce while Imogen Heap's music filled my head along with the lyrics. One of my favorite artists.
The friend with the boyfriend troubles, A, has finally decided to forget his inane ass and now is up for moving on.
"I don't want anything to do with him, and I give up!" She yelled in the class we were in together, I rooted for her.
"She's got my vote." Said Eva as I talked to her about what A said.
Although she doesn't want to be in a relationship for a while, she is probably going to reconnect with an old flame. Let's see what happens.
Friend of mine, M, decided to break up with her boyfriend, who I sorta favor, she even planned it for after-school. She asked me what she should say to him, I gave her a proper and sensitive way to tell him.
"Thanks, that's better then what I came up with in an hour."
Oh how much I love M. I just feel bad for the boyfriend, he really is sweet. Wish he was gay.
I also realized, thanks to the help of a dear friend, Feido, that I don't need a boyfriend, since I have a kick ass twin, Eva. Althought I sorta knew that already, I gave Feido a big hug. Sometimes you don't need a boyfriend to comfort you at times, it's always a very splendid best friend who you need. They'll always be there for you, if they're a true friend, of course.
Walking to the library to visit my friends J and Alex, a girl about my age was walking with a friend and her younger sister.
"Heeeyyyy." Her sluggish voice yelled in a very wannabe-gay manner to make fun of me.
"Hey hoe!" I yelled back with a smile, she stopped and stood with her mouth open.
People who try to bother gay people, are always shocked that we tend to defend ourselves and usually win. I find it inadequate that certain people waste their breath to yell woeful things to someone who they don't even know. Shows you how the world is these days. Coming back from the library, after telling J and Alex what happened at the party, I returned home and listened to lovely music. There was nothing to do, but just reminisce while Imogen Heap's music filled my head along with the lyrics. One of my favorite artists.
Monday, November 3, 2008
Lunes, Noviembre 3
Highschool can be a drag, especially if you're the only gay guy that the school knows of. There are those who of course choose to stay in the closet. I have a special talent, and that talent is to spot a gay guy in a second, it's come in handy. I've spotted a few that I can just tell are either gay or maybe they're just curious, sometimes the most homophobic one is homosexual themselve. The friend of mine with the boyfriend troubles caused nothing but drama in my first class. Her face was filled with remorse when I walked into the room.
"I talked to him, but not for that long. He still thinks we're soulmates, but he wants to stay single for a while." She whispered through her arms as she layed her head on the table.
"Just tell me hun, what do you see in him?" I asked, she didn't answer though.
She told me how he would kiss her in private, but not in public. This brought up many questions and assumptions in my head. Is there another woman involved? Is he ashamed of you? Suddenly, and idea sprung into my head as I kept thinking of the situation, perhaps he's seeing her as a friend with benefits. Highschool love, never lasts. In some cases where it does last, one of the two will either start getting bored and start getting distant or either find someone else to quench their thirst for sex. It happens.
Luckily, I had my twin Eva, to help me go through out the day, we both share the same locker. Shocking, isn't it?
"How are you not going to tell her that he might see her as a friend with benefits? If she asks me, I'm telling her straight up what I think."
"Well, I didn't want her to burts into tears...again." I replied as I took out my things for my next class.
This is highschool, things like these are bound to happen, drama is everywhere. There are girls getting pregnant, teenagers taking drugs and teachers who really just don't care. So can't wait until college.
"I talked to him, but not for that long. He still thinks we're soulmates, but he wants to stay single for a while." She whispered through her arms as she layed her head on the table.
"Just tell me hun, what do you see in him?" I asked, she didn't answer though.
She told me how he would kiss her in private, but not in public. This brought up many questions and assumptions in my head. Is there another woman involved? Is he ashamed of you? Suddenly, and idea sprung into my head as I kept thinking of the situation, perhaps he's seeing her as a friend with benefits. Highschool love, never lasts. In some cases where it does last, one of the two will either start getting bored and start getting distant or either find someone else to quench their thirst for sex. It happens.
Luckily, I had my twin Eva, to help me go through out the day, we both share the same locker. Shocking, isn't it?
"How are you not going to tell her that he might see her as a friend with benefits? If she asks me, I'm telling her straight up what I think."
"Well, I didn't want her to burts into tears...again." I replied as I took out my things for my next class.
This is highschool, things like these are bound to happen, drama is everywhere. There are girls getting pregnant, teenagers taking drugs and teachers who really just don't care. So can't wait until college.
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Domingo, Noviembre 2
Behind closed doors in Milwaukee, party pleasure is taking place, the one I went to was very eccentric and my type of festivity. The party began at 5 pm, though I arrived around 6 pm. Eva's brother, agreed to take me all the way to downtown to where the reception was taking place; after all he is like a brother to me. I'll always be grateful for him. Eva couldn't go though.
I arrived to her house in my, homemade costume, which was just a bunch of skin tight gothic type clothing I don't wear anymore; use to be into the gothic fashion. There was a mask that Eva was going to loan me for this evening.
"I can't find it, I'm so pissed!" She growled as I helped her look for it in the cardboard boxes.
"Oh honey, don't worry." I responded, she had an alternative though, her mother's lavender faerie wings. Though, they seemed to not want to be worn by me, as they kept tilting in an ackward position. Eva turned around to face me, her beige skin glowed, her face very worried.
"I'm just a bit worried about leaving you at this party." She finally said, with a sigh.
"I'm a bit nervous." I replied, and I was, only for the reason that I wouldn't have anyone with me.
The trick of the trade was to not let my parents find out where I was. Imagine their faces if they found out their son was going to a party filled with homosexuals. Now imagine their faces when they find out I'm one myself. See what I'm talking about? After a time of more conversation, Eva then took out her black lace scarf, very sophisticated. She placed it around my neck, the outfit was drop dead seductive. After leaving, we drove for a while in her brother's car, along with her brother's friend, who seemed to be very friendly. The car was filled with utter silence, until her brother put on music; Rap. We looked at both each other, she was a bit worried still. I used the time to apply shimmering lip gloss on my lips, one thing you never leave the house with. My eyes were out the car window as we drove, after a while I saw the place where the party was being held. "There!" I shouted.
Entering the small building, I went to the basement where the people where, the place was of course decorated in Halloween manner. Music played very loud, as I faced plenty of people. Like every party, you have your center of attention, the shy quiet people, and the popular cool crowd.
I arrived to her house in my, homemade costume, which was just a bunch of skin tight gothic type clothing I don't wear anymore; use to be into the gothic fashion. There was a mask that Eva was going to loan me for this evening.
"I can't find it, I'm so pissed!" She growled as I helped her look for it in the cardboard boxes.
"Oh honey, don't worry." I responded, she had an alternative though, her mother's lavender faerie wings. Though, they seemed to not want to be worn by me, as they kept tilting in an ackward position. Eva turned around to face me, her beige skin glowed, her face very worried.
"I'm just a bit worried about leaving you at this party." She finally said, with a sigh.
"I'm a bit nervous." I replied, and I was, only for the reason that I wouldn't have anyone with me.
The trick of the trade was to not let my parents find out where I was. Imagine their faces if they found out their son was going to a party filled with homosexuals. Now imagine their faces when they find out I'm one myself. See what I'm talking about? After a time of more conversation, Eva then took out her black lace scarf, very sophisticated. She placed it around my neck, the outfit was drop dead seductive. After leaving, we drove for a while in her brother's car, along with her brother's friend, who seemed to be very friendly. The car was filled with utter silence, until her brother put on music; Rap. We looked at both each other, she was a bit worried still. I used the time to apply shimmering lip gloss on my lips, one thing you never leave the house with. My eyes were out the car window as we drove, after a while I saw the place where the party was being held. "There!" I shouted.
Entering the small building, I went to the basement where the people where, the place was of course decorated in Halloween manner. Music played very loud, as I faced plenty of people. Like every party, you have your center of attention, the shy quiet people, and the popular cool crowd.
There wasn't anyone I knew, so I went to the table where the food was, I took a chocolate strawberry and took a bite. That's when I bumped into my soon to be friend Jasmia, we talked about the food and I immediately connected with her. She even walked me around to introduce me to her friends, which they call their little group, "The House". I met two drag queens, New York and Caitlin, comical women alright. Being introduced, my eyes caught the most attractive man in the room, the Libidinous Charming Sailor. He was a caucasian guy, with what appeared to be green eyes, he was dressed in the most sexiest sailor costume ever. Asking Jasmia who he was, she told me his name and she could tell that I liked him.
I was then introduced to the one guy in the room I was afraid of; the Direful Stalker Guy. He gave me a devious smile, he was dressed in casual clothes, even wearing glasses. Sitting at one of the tables where I eyed the Sailor, Stalker Guy sat next to me. I was enjoying a lollipop, when he tapped me on my shoulder, I turned around. "You know, you sucking on that lollipop is turning me on." With a nervous smile, I then dumped it into a small bag of candy and turned to face Jasmia. She laughed when I told her this. Apparently he has a reputation for being creepy. I don't mind turning men on, it's what I love to do and do best, but I hate it when I turn the wrong man on. Why couldn't it have been the Sailor? But after that moment, the Sailor saw me and threw a smirk at me, I gave him one in return. The Drag Show was about to begin. They were all african american, and one Puertorican, they all looked lovely. The show began and I was rooting for Caitlin, and already she turned it into a strip show. We all laughed as New York was after, which Caitlin took the spotlight. There were dollar bills being thrown.
After laughing so hard that we couldn't breathe, the Costume Contest began, Jasmia encouraged me to compete, even though I already was, and so was the Sailor. I was dressed as a Little French Goth Boy. Two drag queens, one woman dressed as a hooker, Sailor and I were the only ones facing the crowd. Both of us were competing for Most Funny and Most Unique. So was the woman dressed as the hooker. After one of the drag queens' won Most Funny the second drag queen won Most Scariest, she was dressed as the Devil. It was only the Hooker, Sailor, and I up for Most Unique. We had the crowd cheer for whoever they thought was the winner. Sadly, Sailor didn't get much clapping, except from me. Hooker got a group of people cheering, and my new friends cheered loudly for me. It was now between the Hooker and I, she wished me luck and I returned the favor. Hooker didn't get the loudest cheering, 'cause I did. The House cheered the most loudest for me, that's when I was handed the small trophy and two candy bars. I gave big hugs to those who cheered for me, that's when I asked Jasmia to introduce me to the Sailor.
"Hey, this is Beau." She said as she gave him a heart warming smile.
"It's a pleasure to meet you Beau." He replied as I shook his hand, that he offered.
"You should've won." I told him as the flirtacious smile appeared on my face.
"Ah no, I'm not worthy." Complimenting me, I chuckled as he did the little "I'm not worthy" gesture. Yes, I had a huge crush on him. After leaving from his lovely presence, Jasmia and I were taking pictures with everyone else. I caught the Sailor watching me from afar, everytime I caught him I smiled, he smiled back.
"I think he likes you." Jasmia informed me as she caught us staring.
"Really? Why?" I enquired her, she had a grin on her face.
"Well, a lot of his boyfriends were Latinos." She said with a chuckle, looks like I have a chance.
After the end of the party, Eva came to pick me up with her brother, she had a killer headache. I immediately gave her a bear hug as we sat down together at the back. She wasn't in the mood to hear much about what happened, so I looked out the window. I couldn't have done it without her and her brother. It was an extravagant party.
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Sabado, Noviembre 1
Just came back from the Gay Halloween Party, which was just fabulous, of course. So much detail and so much astonishing tales to be told. Unfortunately I am too weary to type everything that happened tonight, and have decided to just go to bed. I promise though, that I shall tell you how I met the the Libidinous Charming Sailor, The Direful Stalker Guy, and how I won the "Most Unique Costume Award". Even details on the Drag Show. All being writtened in the morning.
Until then, I should undress and slumber.
Until then, I should undress and slumber.
Friday, October 31, 2008
Viernes, Octubre 31
Well, it seems that things for my friend have gotten much finer than it was before. Her boyfriend still loves her, misses her, and can't live without her. We've all heard that one before, haven't we? Hopefully they shall continue their passionate relationship, we all wish them the best of luck. He just told her that he wants to analyze all of what's going on until Sunday. Feeling a bit well, she spent the day at Eva's house. Although I did want to go, I felt that she needed to be there. So it gave me time for myself, which wasn't much.
I'm planning on going to a Gay Halloween Dance I was invited to on Saturday. I find it a bit odd that they're doing it on Saturday other then doing it today, being Halloween and all. My parents not knowing that it's a Gay Halloween Dance, believe I'm just going to a normal halloween party with Eva.
"So Eva's taking you?" Inquired my father in his tired voice, I never really like to ask him for stuff.
"Well, that's the plan. Her brother is taking us, that's if she can go." It was the truth I was telling him, Eva was still not sure if she could go.
"Okay." My father probably wanted to know more, but that's all I gave him. This whole conversation was in spanish, by the way.
My parents believe that Eva and I are involved in a discreet relationship, which makes us laugh. Not knowing that I'm gay, my parents have always thought that Eva and I are dating. I still wish I could tell them the truth, come out to the closet to them, and not just to every person I meet. Everyone in school knows I'm gay, everyone outside my family knows I'm gay. Yet, it's a big secret to them. Eva and I believe that they're just in denial. Aint life grand?
Just an F.Y.I, Eva is mostly everything to me, without her, I'm nothing. You see, she's my other half, my twin. We've know each other for half our lives. Everyone has a best mate, don't they?
I'm planning on going to a Gay Halloween Dance I was invited to on Saturday. I find it a bit odd that they're doing it on Saturday other then doing it today, being Halloween and all. My parents not knowing that it's a Gay Halloween Dance, believe I'm just going to a normal halloween party with Eva.
"So Eva's taking you?" Inquired my father in his tired voice, I never really like to ask him for stuff.
"Well, that's the plan. Her brother is taking us, that's if she can go." It was the truth I was telling him, Eva was still not sure if she could go.
"Okay." My father probably wanted to know more, but that's all I gave him. This whole conversation was in spanish, by the way.
My parents believe that Eva and I are involved in a discreet relationship, which makes us laugh. Not knowing that I'm gay, my parents have always thought that Eva and I are dating. I still wish I could tell them the truth, come out to the closet to them, and not just to every person I meet. Everyone in school knows I'm gay, everyone outside my family knows I'm gay. Yet, it's a big secret to them. Eva and I believe that they're just in denial. Aint life grand?
Just an F.Y.I, Eva is mostly everything to me, without her, I'm nothing. You see, she's my other half, my twin. We've know each other for half our lives. Everyone has a best mate, don't they?
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Jueves, Octubre 30
A dear friend of mine has gone through a sudden anguish due to the conflict that had happened between her and her boyfriend. Apparently they are taking a break, although the boyfriend sees it more as a break up, which has devastated her. It's a bit of both of their faults for what happened.
"I just wish I could tell him how I feel." She mumbled into the phone, I was surprised I could understand her perfectly, since she was sobbing.
"Honey, he still loves you, we know that, I'm sure that things will take a perfect turn." It was the truth, they both saw each others as soulmates and they were only in Highschool.
"I can't eat and I feel very sick."
I'm always there for any of my friends, this one always goes through something worse.
After having a long conversation with her about this, I dialed the number of my best friend Eva.
"She can't stop thinking about it, he keeps her alive you know." Eva said, her voice sounding proffesional yet very sympathetic.
"Yes, but hopefully they will get back together, after all they love each other." It's the truth.
I didn't want to stop taking to her, after all she saved me from being annoyed from the idiots in my household. She had to go, and after that I wondered if I should call my friend.
After the third tone, I decided to hang up. No answer. Perhaps she decided to sleep it off.
Love these days.
"I just wish I could tell him how I feel." She mumbled into the phone, I was surprised I could understand her perfectly, since she was sobbing.
"Honey, he still loves you, we know that, I'm sure that things will take a perfect turn." It was the truth, they both saw each others as soulmates and they were only in Highschool.
"I can't eat and I feel very sick."
I'm always there for any of my friends, this one always goes through something worse.
After having a long conversation with her about this, I dialed the number of my best friend Eva.
"She can't stop thinking about it, he keeps her alive you know." Eva said, her voice sounding proffesional yet very sympathetic.
"Yes, but hopefully they will get back together, after all they love each other." It's the truth.
I didn't want to stop taking to her, after all she saved me from being annoyed from the idiots in my household. She had to go, and after that I wondered if I should call my friend.
After the third tone, I decided to hang up. No answer. Perhaps she decided to sleep it off.
Love these days.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Miercoles, Octubre 29
I know that the title for my blog seems a bit, unusual, but the reason for that title is due to the fact that I am homosexual; okay I believe we've established that. You see, I feel as if I'm living sorta a double life. My family doesn't know I'm gay, but many of my friends do, it's a bit of a difficult challenge actually. So much of a challenge that it's caused so much drama in my life that I feel as it's a story that needs to be told to the people. After a suggestion from a very close friend, I then decided to blog for the very first time. Maybe my story might seem interesting to some, others not.
Am I living a double life? It's you to decide.
To tell you the truth, I don't even know myself.
Am I living a double life? It's you to decide.
To tell you the truth, I don't even know myself.
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